So, I did a big scary thing.
I’ve been trying to decide how to tell you all what I’ve done… partially because I’m so excited it’s hard to put into words, and partially because I’m so scared it’s hard to put into words 🤣😂...
This thing I’ve done is going to drastically change my life. It’s going to change my social life, my family life… all the things.
It’s something I have wanted to do for years. Something that I’ve been too scared to do. Haven’t had the confidence to do.
I’ve been afraid of the investment cost. Afraid of what I’m going to have to change.
I’ve been afraid to commit. Afraid of how long it’s going to take. Afraid of the discipline and consistency it’s going to require.
MASSIVELY afraid of failing.
All those fears are compounded exponentially by putting it out there for the world to see, btw lol.
But here is what I have learned – we never truly feel “ready” for anything that is next level. We get comfortable. And anything outside that comfort zone is… uncomfortable.
We can make a million excuses. We can have all the reasons we aren’t ready.
I think often times we say things like “I’ll do XYZ after I’ve gotten more confident”, or “I’ll be ready for that AFTER I do these other smaller more comfortable things first”.
I was doing that too.
But you know what? ACTION GIVES CONFIDENCE. We have it backwards! If we do the scary things, it GIVES us the confidence that we desire!
So finally, I decided it’s time for me to show up. Time for me to take the action I’ve been too scared to take. Time for me to get really uncomfortable, push myself in a way I’ve never been pushed before.
So, I’m excited/scared/nervous/anxious to share with you, that I have officially joined the world of bikini fitness competitions 😱😳😍😭 #allthefeelsAs in, getting in top physically fit shape and standing on a stage in a bikini to literally have people judge my body lol.
Monday I start training. Super detailed nutrition plan, super detailed workouts – all require a lot of time, dedication, maximum effort, and massive consistency.
All things I have never done.
Those aren’t the things I did to lose 50 lbs.
When I was on my weight loss journey, I was NEVER successful when I had a rigid plan to follow. I’m just being honest here. If I tried to follow a specific workout program, or if I tried a specific diet, I never lasted very long.
What I learned about myself is that when I was on a strict plan, and life happened, it always threw me off mentally. If I missed one day I felt like a failure, and spiraled out of control. During my weight loss journey, I was still really working on my mindset. And for me, part of that process included NOT having a strict plan, so I could learn how to trust myself more, not have so many rules, so I wouldn’t feel like I was “failing”.
Thats the same process I use with my clients! And that’s why they are sucessful too once they start working with me! I show them that they don’t need a rigid plan with lots of rules to lose weight. Because you don’t!
But for me, right now, I am no longer just looking for weight loss. I am looking to take my results to the next level, I am looking to take my body to the next level. And that means I have to take my actions to the next level.
I will be honest here, I am scared and nervous, that is for sure. What if I fall back into my old mindset? What if the rules make me feel more like a failure again?
I also know that I have done a TON of mindset work, and I know I am in a MUCH stronger place mentally now than I ever have been before. I know I want this. I want to do this. I’m excited about being part of this sport. I’m excited to see what I am capable of. I’m excited to learn more about me and more about this process. Because I am an expert in weight loss - I am NOT an expert in body building or bikini competitions lol.
I’m sure I will make some mistakes along the way. But I know I will learn from them, and use them to serve me, rather than let them get me down.
I’m going to try and blog through this process. Partly because I want to be able to come back and see what the journey was like. Partly becuase it will help holdme accountable, and partly because I know there are people out there that need to hear what I have to say.
So to you, reading this, THANK YOU. You are truly the reason I am even in this online space, sharing my crazy life. I appreciate you.
Remember, life get’s to be amazing. All you have to do is take action.
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