Sometimes I feel like quitting. It happens about once a month. Sometimes it gets pretty bad… full on ugly crying and everything.
I think it’s compounded by my history with mental illness. Depression, anxiety… and so usually around the time I’m having my ladies days (you know what I’m saying lol), it all comes up and feels hard. Everything feels heavy. I satrt to feel like it’s not worth it.
I think, that’s it, I’m done, I’m quitting my business. It would be so much easier to just have my 9-5 and collect my paycheck and just go on with life.
I think, I don’t need to have the lean body, who cares, I’m just going to eat whatever I want and it’s too stressful trying to make it to the gym all the time.
I think these things, and it hurts. I feel like a failure. I feel like I’ve been working on my goals so hard for so long, and at the same time I feel like I’m not doing enough, that I’m not doing...
So, I did a big scary thing.
I’ve been trying to decide how to tell you all what I’ve done… partially because I’m so excited it’s hard to put into words, and partially because I’m so scared it’s hard to put into words ...
This thing I’ve done is going to drastically change my life. It’s going to change my social life, my family life… all the things.
It’s something I have wanted to do for years. Something that I’ve been too scared to do. Haven’t had the confidence to do.
I’ve been afraid of the investment cost. Afraid of what I’m going to have to change.
I’ve been afraid to commit. Afraid of how long it’s going to take. Afraid of the discipline and consistency it’s going to require.
MASSIVELY afraid of failing.
All those fears are compounded exponentially by putting it out there for the world to see, btw lol.
But here is what I have learned – we never truly feel...
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